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[25 Jan 2003|11:22pm]
This journal is friends only. I'll screen people before adding them. It's a trust issue. You understand, don't you?
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[31 Dec 2002|09:01pm]
cows go moo and so do i.

eh i binged... i swear i ate like 900 cals today.... what i ate:

1 bagel w/ cream cheese
piece of meatloaf
piece of fish
mashed potatos
corn
a roll
dry salad
A CARAMEL SUNDAE

yes i ate all of that food! i feel like a fucking heifer. and i couldn't get away to purge. eep. but on the upside it reminded me of how bad i feel when i eat. so it's renewed my energy to fast. and i shall. i'm thinking maybe 2 weeks or 2 and a half weeks. don't ask me why but i wanna test out the theory of the 10th day thing. see how it goes. i'm really excited about this fast. 2 and a half weeks is 18 days.. which means 18 more lbs. [sigh]

wish me luck....

and have a happy new year! this is our year girls.... the year of ana! wOOt.
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[30 Dec 2002|03:57am]
i've completed 35 hrs of my fast so far. wOOt! every time i felt a hunger pain i would look at my bracelet and feel special. and i wouldn't be hungry anymore. i was watching the xtina video for beautiful and my mum say the ana girl who's looking in the mirror feeling her ribs... and my mum said "that's disgusting! she's way too skinny" and i said "what, are you crazy?! she's gorgeous. she's perfect. everyone's beautiful mum. that's what the song is about." i succeeded in making her feel guilty. the truth is i do think everyone is beautiful. except for me. and well those ppl you see in those reverse trigger photos. am i the only one who feels this way?

i know there was something i wanted to type about but i can't think of it right now. ohhh! my mum is still listening to xmas music... so she's playing the 12 days of xmas and so i thought of the 12 days of fasting! but i couldn't think of anything after 5. so here goes!

on the first day of fasting ana gave to me
a pain in my tummy
on the second day of fasting ana gave to me
two head aches and a pain in my tummy
on the third day of fasting ana gave to me
three dizzy spells, two head aches, and a pain in my tummy
on the fourth day of fasting ana gave to me
four miles walked, three dizzy spells, two head aches, and a pain in my tummy
on the fifth day of fasting ana gave to me
FIVE DIET PILLLLLLLS
four miles walked, three dizzy spells, two head aches, and a pain in my tummy!

woooo lol that's what happens when you're bored and fasting!
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